Feeling like writing

rekindledWith Spring finally here, flirting with us between the clouds and the occasional rain shower, I have been feeling like writing again.  I saw the above quote a few weeks ago.  It was something I needed to hear, just when I needed to hear it most.  A big thank you to the person who posted it.


I’m still broken-hearted over several things,

and I spend way too much time reading the posts under the Love tab in my reader;

however I have been making things too, so it hasn’t all been time wasted.



Aside from making plans, I finished a pair of socks.  I finally realized that my feet aren’t as large as I think they are, so I cast on for two more pair in a smaller size.  I am getting more confident with my sock making, though I am still making plain socks rather than those with lace, cables, or twists.  My left foot has been giving me pain for several months now, but I don’t know why.  With my luck, it will probably fall off when I’m least expecting it, “Dang.”  On the bright side, sock making will go quicker with only one sock to make.  I started crocheting a pullover, but I will be frogging it soon.  I don’t have enough yarn to finish the design I have in mind.  It was a fun attempt at any rate.  I almost finished making a cushion cover, but the cat found the pieces first, and now has two new cat blankets.  Funny how that works.  She has her eyes on the afore mentioned pullover as well.

I have been studying up on the business of art, and in so doing, discovered that my feelings of being lost and overwhelmed are not as uncommon as I have been lead to believe.  Making a living as an artist requires one to wear many different hats, creating is a full time job in itself, but we also need to be business managers, marketers, and accountants.  Fortunate are the artists who have business partners, it must be nice to have someone at your back (without a knife in one hand).  At the moment, I am focusing my studies on art writing, which ironically means I am not currently making the art I am learning to write about.  It will all come together, it has to.


I’m struggling with computer problems, and I have a GPU on order which will hopefully fix things.  It needs more than a GPU, however it would be cheaper to buy a new computer, than to upgrade this one.  I may have to replace the monitor, it needs more RAM, the operating system needs to be upgraded, the list seems endless and endlessly expensive.  I do have a spare monitor, but it is smaller, 15″ compared to the 22″ I am using now.  It will take some getting used to.

I finally came up with a logo design, after dropping the whole thing and doing everything BUT think of logos.  Once I get my artist’s statement the way I want it, along with decent photos of my work, I plan to start a new blog.  I never did make the portfolio site I wanted, mostly because of the expense.  The business books I have been reading have been stressing that I need something though, even if it is only a blog.  It will need to be focused on my art, which this one is not.

My dreams have been infrequent.  One night I dreamt of an old love, he was smiling at me; it has been an eternity since I last dreamed of him.  Another night I dreamt I found a huge stash of wallets, it was a happy dream.  Most recently, I dreamed of admiring a woman, wishing I were as beautiful… but she was plastic like a doll, and her flaws were covered up with heavy make up.  When I woke, I realized I shouldn’t compare myself to these mannequins I see on the web and in print.  I don’t need surgery and make up to be attractive, no one does.  It doesn’t mean anything.  It’s fake.  I could do with a hair cut though.

Those are my thoughts lately, as well as my goings-on.  I still struggle with intense self doubt and depression, which is why everything takes me ten times longer to accomplish.  Hopefully I am almost through with my cave time, did I mention my sunflowers from last year, reseeded?  I didn’t expect them to, but they did.  It was a good reminder that good things can happen at anytime.

Almost Thanksgiving

Wow.  It’s hard to believe how fast the time is passing by, I feel like I am living in an alternate reality, “November?!  It’s not November, it’s still June…”  I look outside and wonder when the leaves fell from the trees, it seems like it was overnight.

I guess I have been keeping busy, though I don’t feel like I have done much at all.  I had intended to write something thoughtful regarding what has been playing on my mind of late, but the words don’t want to come just yet.  Was it Hawthorne who said, “we must not always talk in the market place, of what happens to us in the forest.”, some things are best left unspoken.  This is a lesson I don’t always follow, it took me a while to learn what it really meant.

Anyhow, here are a few of my projects in the works.  I’m still working on the scarf I spoke of a few posts ago, it’s taking forever.  I think the yarn is cursed.  Instead, I’ve worked on more pleasant things.  I also dyed my hair and cleaned the bathroom, not exactly pleasant but at least both me and the bathroom look presentable.

I’m still reading your blogs, even if I don’t comment as much.


I started a Ruffle Rose pillow using the Lionbrand Homespun that belonged to my sister. I might even finish it.


I have 30 squares made for a blanket for my bed. The squares are 5″ across.


This is the tiger scarf I made ages ago and mentioned briefly when I first started the blog. I recently added the crocheted edge to one side. I’m deciding what to do with it next. It’s a hard scarf to photograph, it’s long and skinny, and curls up into a tube.

Obligatory Scarf

I don’t know about you, but I have this compulsion for knitting scarves.  This time every year, I get all zombie-like, “scaaarrrfff”.  As a result I have quite the collection, and most people who know me end up getting a scarf at some point.  This year I am trying something different.

April had me look at a scarf on ModCloth, to see if I could figure out how it was made.  I have an idea, although my initial experiments were less than successful.  I like a challenge and if I manage to crack the technique they used, I will post my results.  Since I was already on the site, I looked at other scarves and saw a very nice one I could totally make RIGHT NOW.  It combined the textures of garter stitch with a woven stitch in a circular scarf.  What is different about these scarves is I am trying to recreate something on sight alone, rather than follow a pattern or pick a stitch out of my Harmony guide.  The scarves will not be exact copies, but will hopefully possess the qualities I liked from the originals.

This is what I plan to do for one of the scarves:

On straight needles, size 7, using DK yarn, cast on 78 stitches.
Garter Stitch for ___ inches, slipping first stitch in each row.
Purl next row.
Begin Woven Cable Stitch, slipping first stitch and knitting last stitch on each row.  Continue for __ inches.  Knit one row right side.  Bind off.  Join ends.
ETA: It may be necessary to go up a needle size for the woven cable stitch portion, if it pulls in too tightly in comparison with the garter stitch.

I don’t have a photo yet as I am still on the garter stitch portion.  Originally, I had planned on waiting to post this for when I had a completed scarf, but it will be some time before I am at that point.  The original was made from 100% acrylic, for mine, I’m using stash yarn (Rowan Silk Wool in Sorrel).  The yarn is a funny shade, under certain light it looks green, in others, brown.  I tried to make a scarf from this yarn before, but the Liz had business to settle with THAT scarf, so I had to frog the whole thing.  Hopefully this scarf won’t suffer from residual bad cat karma.